M here at makati med for my follow up chk w/ my cardiologist.it took more than an hr frm mandaluyong.on my own,4d 1st tym i took d jp to mrt-shaw,mrt-ayala,taxi to mmc.i seem 2b always w8ng.at d doctor,to gv birth,4 hubby.dont sm 2 hv a life of my own.not complainin.jst stating a fact.if i hv a car,i wud b more mobile,taking more out-of-town trips w/ my children.i do feel dat hubby has a life of his own and he rather spend d holidays w/ other people.its a constant thorn n our marriage.i stopd telling him what shud be.my supplications hv fallen on deaf ears.its not a life dat i want.i want him to stay bcoz he loves me and do all these things i want coz it wil make me happy.i want a family dat sticks together bcoz of d love dat we hv 4 each other.i love him stil.sadly,i dont hear d words anymore nor do i feel d love. Que sera sera

Salon moment for mom and abby

I am not a vain person but i do enjoy having myself pampered from time to time. It's one way of keeping the stress to a minimum. One find saturday morning, i decided to have my hair treated at a nearby beauty parlor, and i decided to bring abby since she asked if she could come. Of my two kids, abby is more like me. She likes to go with me wherever i want to go, Aj is content to be left at the house and watch tv so long as i tell her where i will be. She also admonishes me to go home early. God is my refuge and He is giving me Aj as my strength and Abby, my comfort. I figured a hot oil treatment for abby hair will be good for her itchy scalp.


I bought her food to munch on while our hair is being treated. I actually had this same experience with AJ when she was also of the same age as abby. I recommend it to all moms and young toddler girls.

Interviewed by Vanity Fair

Sometimes, i do make believe. It seems only famous people gets interviewed more so in magazines of worth. You will get insights into your own psyche when faced with questions you never thought someone would ask.
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What is your greatest fear? Nothing for myself, for my children. Anything that would HURT them.

What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? Too emotional.

What is the trait you most deplore in others? Dishonesty.

What is your greatest extravagance? Travelling.

What is your current state of mind? Numbed.

On what occasion do you lie? forced to do so by the gods.

What do you dislike most about your appearance?i look like i frown a lot but i don't, it's just the way my face is structured.

Which living person do you most despise? probably the perpetrator of the Maguindanao massacre.

What is the quality you most like in a man? Godly, responsible(in all sense of the word), sexy in that order.

What is the quality you most like in a woman? Same thing i like in a man

Which words or phrases do you most overuse? Why, no, expensive

Which talent would you most like to have? INVINCIBILITY

What do you consider your greatest achievement? my children

If you were to die and come back as a person or thing, what do you think it would be? same old me without the emotional baggage

Where would you like to live? Bohol,Iligan,Manila,on the road, out of the country for short periods of time with hubby and my kids.

What is your most treasured possession? not much, i don't put much stock on things but if i have to is suppose it's a watch given by hubby

What do you most value in your friends? DEPENDABILITY IN FRIENDSHIP

Who are your favorite writers? paolo coelho, james allen for non-fiction

Who is your favorite hero of fiction? edward cullen

Which historical figure do you most identify with? gandhi?

What is it that you most dislike? without integrity

What is your motto? love...and love some more

Tread softly

He Wishes for the cloths of Heaven
by William Butler Yeats.

Had i the heavens' embroidered cloths'
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But i, being poor, have only dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because your treading on my dreams.

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My dreams are not grandiose and it's all about family.
I wish and fervently hope and pray for a happy and successful family life united always in love. But i am only half of a whole and i am telling you my dreams and laying it at your feet...so tread softly because your treading on my dreams

Don't love you no more

Yesterday, a friend of hubby told me that she doesn't mind if her husband goes home late at night or if he doesn't go home. She doesn't ask any questions even if her husband do something out of his daily routine. So i asked her if it's okay with her that her husband just come and goes without telling her, just like a doormat? And she said yes. It's because she doesn't really give 100% of herself to him, she withholds a bit for herself an insurance because you don't really know what's going to happen in the future. Less pain that way.

How is it possible to love someone and not give 100% of yourself? Maybe by slowly telling yourself that you no longer love the person?

Maybe it is possible to shift the focus. Instead of loving him a 100%, love your children 125%, the other 25% you keep to yourself living him only 50%. Does it make sense?