O This Feelings!

I wish i could feel the love again. Or be secured again. Or that feeling of contentment again. Waking up at 3 am and feeling that hollow feeling inside seems to be the order of the day.

I know, i know , put everything in perspective. Worst things have happened to other people. In fact, i should be thankful right now. And i am, believe me. Yet, i can't shake off that feeling of emptiness. You will never know it unless you are in my shoes.

I thank God for a lot of things, for everyday in fact, for His abundant material blessings and for my family. I am. I truly do. Does it make me less thankful if i say that i am still depressed?

No more drama, please.

Exit Wound

I don't think i'll ever gonna be ok. There are days when i don't even think about it. There are days when there's just no stopping the tears and the anger just keep on building up.

How do i get over past it? Is it ever worth my struggle?

Raining Cats and Dogs

Honestly, did you really think it's all just going to go away because i seemed ok?

Nope. You've broken the glass trust so many times, it seemed like when i handed you a new one doesn't really matter because you think my supply is inexhaustible. I thought so too. I don't have to hold on to something that's meaningless to you. In fact, everything would probably just going to be fine without you.

The next time you act the wounded party, Stop! You're not. Sell your act somewhere will someone may yet believe you. As for me, those words out of your mouth are just empty rhetorics meant to hook someone into believing what a good and dignified person you are. Stop the drama.

I hate you. And i never hated anyone before.