I know i have a lot to be thankful for. I truly am. But let me be sad for just a moment. Let me wallow in this depressed state which i have tried to hide for so long. I really thought i could pull it off, you know being emotionless, having a constant poker face to keep sadness away. It is so damn hard to shoo you away, sadness. I suppose, i will just to drown you away with my tears and pray sleep will come to my rescue. Perhaps then, i can start selectively caring.