Of heartaches and chestpains

I am bothered again by the chestpains that i felt. I started feeling it yesterday. I guess it was prompted by yesterday's anger. The day before it was sadness over a casual remark by somebody. I never did like being the target of a green joke. It's harrassment. But of course, I can't say anything about it. I have mouths to feed. Yup, welcome to the real world. I have also been unmindful of what i eat. I have been eating pizza for the last few days courtesy of officemates' gain on the stockmarket. And i gained weight, and getting to lazy to exercise.

No matter, it's actually an improvement of sort. Back home, it's like a weekly occurence. Sometimes, i think it is triggered by anxiety. I am always conscious of my heartrate, the need to exercise, and being too picky with what i eat. Since living here in the big city, i don't put too much stock on everything anymore. I figured, if your life stops there, there's probably nothing much that anyone can do. And so , i have more peaceful thoughts. I am also pre-occupied with other things and so i have less time thinking about my situations.

I guess, i need another vacation now. In truth, I will be going back home. Visiting my family, attending a wedding, so i will just concentrate in having fun. Yup, i need to concentrate to have fun. That's how mental my problem is. I can't help but think about it in my alone time. But i have so much to be thankful for. And everytime, i'm just so down, i think of them(my kids) and everything just keeps getting brighter. Did i mention, praying helps?

Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea

Sometimes life puts you in situations where you have to chose between the devil and the deep blue sea. like holding on and letting go.  when holding on is costing you so much, like your hanging by your hands on a knife and every second that you hold on is cutting you up. and then you can chose to let go, when letting go means your falling onto the ocean  when you don’t know how to swim.

And then God’s grace is made manifest by the overwhelming peace that comes to you in moments of surrender to His Will. A minute at a time. That’s all i have to do. It is easy to forget God when i’m deep in my sorrows. But His answer has always been to take things a minute at a time. It’s and age-old truth, ancient wisdom that i often forget. Whatever problem i may have, i will get by a minute at a time.

Between the devil and the deep blue sea

Between the devil and the deep blue sea..

Sometimes life puts you in situations where you have to chose between the devil and the deep blue sea. like holding on and letting go. when holding on is costing you so much, like your hanging by your hands on a knife and every second that you hold on is cutting you up. and then you can chose to let go, when letting go means your falling onto the ocean when you don't know how to swim.

and then God's grace is made manifest by the overwhelming peace that comes to you in moments of surrender to His Will. A minute at a time. That's all i have to do. It is easy to forget God when i'm deep in my sorrows. But His answer has always been to take things a minute at a time. It's and age-old truth, ancient wisdom that i often forget. Whatever problem i may have, i will get by a minute at a time.