For a moment..

I know i have a lot to be thankful for.  I truly am.  But let me be sad for just a moment.  Let me wallow in this depressed state which i have tried to hide for so long.  I really thought i could pull it off, you know being emotionless, having a constant poker face to keep sadness away.  It is so damn hard to shoo you away, sadness.  I suppose, i will just to drown you away with my tears and pray sleep will come to my rescue.  Perhaps then, i can start selectively caring.