For a moment..

I know i have a lot to be thankful for.  I truly am.  But let me be sad for just a moment.  Let me wallow in this depressed state which i have tried to hide for so long.  I really thought i could pull it off, you know being emotionless, having a constant poker face to keep sadness away.  It is so damn hard to shoo you away, sadness.  I suppose, i will just to drown you away with my tears and pray sleep will come to my rescue.  Perhaps then, i can start selectively caring.

Kung #mayForever

KA friend got married today and our family played a great part in the entourage.  They have been civilly married since 2011  but were never under the same roof because the parent's bride more specifically the father was not so keen on the groom.  The bride is of chinese descent  courtesy of the father.  

Anyway, sans revealing private matters suffice it to say that the bride's family has accepted the groom to their family.  Since the groom's family hails from the southernmost part of the country known mainly as haven for muslim separatists and rebels, this was actually the first time that they all have met.  And so perhaps, it is only natural that there would be awkwardness between both families.  And yet, i see no real effort by the bride's family to act as gracious hosts here.  To put it bluntly,  the bride's family was snobbish to the groom's family. At best, they were just ignoring us.  I consider myself part of the family since the groom has been living with us for about 5 years now.  More than me being piqued at this situation, what i really wanted to see and which was clearly missing was for the bride's family to be more accomodating and hospitable. After all, a marriage between 2 person also means that the two families are now connected.  At the very least, they won't be seeing the groom's family after this event because travel to Manila is just not attractive to them and is actually more of a hassle to them. So perhaps it was not too much to expect Filipino hospitality? 

Consider this the ramblings of a sleepy but can't sleep mother of 4.